When thinking back to my darkest days I remember how difficult it was to find the motivation to rise in the morning. I often laid in bed for hours with no desire to embark on the new day. I know how hard it was for my family to watch me opt for self-imposed confinement, rather than join them. It was difficult to find motivation to justify the tolerance and energy needed to deal with the wide array of BS I had not yet learned to manage. There was the physical pain, emotional numbness, and the drug induced stupor my medications left me in.
All I remember thinking to myself each morning before getting out bed was, “I’m so tired of being sick.” Day after day, I would think this phrase over and over. Finally one day, I woke up on a bright sunny morning, and despite the fact that my legs were burning, my head was imploding, and my skin was itchy, I thought– I am going to ignore all of it. I am not going to let anyone know or see how I am feeling. I was finally strong enough to not give in to the pain. I replaced my “I’m so tired of being sick,” with “Thank you for the new day.”
As I continued the practice of greeting my morning with a few deep breaths and a “Thank you for the new day,” something changed for me. I started to have the desire to move, do something other than lay in bed. I longed for beach walks and big belly laughs. I asked my family not to ask how I was feeling and stop treating me like I was sick. I wanted to take my place in our family, because I was truly thankful for each day. When friends and family asked how I was doing, I now answered “wonderful.” And until this day I am still amazed at how much better I felt from one day to the next by not acknowledging the BS.
When I read my old journals, I notice I started to feel stronger when I changed my morning greeting and stopped thinking about what I didn’t want. Replacing my negative thought with a positive thought was just the start of how I managed to find the strength and determination to learn to tame this disease.
Have you ever replaced a negative thought with a positive thought, and realized the words propelled a powerful change your life?
As always, please feel free to share your thoughts and experiences. I hope that by sharing my experiences you find strength, hope, and solutions when you make your commitment to live beyond your illness.
Gal Pal Carmen
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