Pity Party No More: I Can’t Do This Anymore


Me and My babies at the 2011 Epcot Food and Wine Festival 2011

Sitting in a dim room for days, sometimes weeks at a time, seeing only a ray of light that dances between the blinds, I sit longing for it all to end–the pain, the exhaustion, the loneliness. No answers only questions. Why has my body become a torture chamber? What did I do to my body to make it so angry? How is it they can’t find anything wrong? Am I going crazy? Has my family given up on me?

Before receiving my diagnosis, I found my bottom. I felt hopeless, weak, and alone. Certain I was losing a battle with a mysterious terminal disease that was yet to be discovered. Each dreaded morning, I could not conceive how I would make it another damn day with all of this bull shit going on.

About 18 months in, realizing I was losing the battle and needed to check into a hospital, I reached out — I needed help for my children. I wanted to make things as normal as possible for them. I always had a strong support system, or so I thought. My so-called support system would be almost completely absent during this critical time for me and my family. But for whatever reason, when I realized my family would have no one to care for them the way I wanted, my rebellious spirit summoned a will and strength I did not know I had, and I believe I am still here because of it.

While this lack of support caused a great deal of heartache, I do believe it was a blessing, I’ll be it a mixed one. This sparked a fire inside me to prove I could fight this dis-ease and be there for my children. Today, almost 2 years later I am living a well-lived life with my wonderful, incredibly strong family (and Chronic Fibromyalgia and Lyme Disease are my constant companions).

What has given you the will to fight dis-ease in your life?

“I learned how to summon, from somewhere deep within, th extra will I didn’t know I possessed. Knowing it was there, and could be tapped again, gave me a boost of confidence I would rely on for years to come.” – Sugar Ray Leonard

Because I got by with a little help from my girlfriends, I want to help you get help from your girlfriends. As always, please feel free to share your thoughts and experiences.

Carmen M. Perez, Travel Planner

Your Florida Travel Expert and Girlfriends’ Getaway Specialist

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3 comments on “Pity Party No More: I Can’t Do This Anymore

  1. Inspirational, Carmen! Keep the positive attitude and don’t let anything stop you from accomplishing your goals. Sounds like you already knew that…
    Adam Ross

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